
Hearts on the Line … captured on August 22, 2009 - 5DJennifer and I agreed we'd all go to the last game together and tell Coach Steve that Matthew was done. As the day wore on, she e-mailed me at work suggesting we speak with the coach; after all, this likely wasn't the first time a kid wanted to quit playing. Perhaps, she suggested, he might offer a solution.
We arrived at High Park by 6:10 for our 6:30 game but there'd been a double-booking and we'd have to wait to play at 7:15. We told Matthew to run off and practice with his teammates but he seemed uneasy. When the coach called the kids in for warm up exercises, Jennifer and I talked about how uncomfortable the Lad has been around the other players. I'm not sure if he's had a tiff with someone but this did seem out of the ordinary. We took the miss-scheduling as an opportunity to talk to the coach. First, we wanted to know how much of a commitment the winter session would be. He suggested it would be one night a week and that it would be mostly training; the component that Matthew really enjoys. I then insinuated that Matthew was feeling awkward with the players; not one in specific, but he was being overly shy. The coach agreed to keep an eye on things.
Walking back to Marina who'd been playing with Jennifer's iPod, we agreed to talk to Matthew when he had a break before the game. When he did, we told him that we'd talked to the coach and Jennifer offered that she thought he should keep playing through the winter. It was at this point that he said nonchalantly: "That's what I want to do." We barely got to discuss why we thought he should play—the physical exercise, only one night a week, making new friends—before he was off. "Yeah, that's okay. That's what I want too!"
So, all's well that ends well. I think the initial question to play came at a time when he was feeling low about himself and his playing. I also think he's been jittery around kids that aren't in his core group; in fact, I noticed this over the past few weeks in various day camps as most of his closest friends have been away. Perhaps that's what brought this on in the first place. Who knows with kids? All I know is that the whole parenting thing can indeed be more difficult than it needs to be.
At the end of the day, he played very well and really seemed to have fun. Marina hooked up with Alex, the sister of one of Matthew's teammates and they ran themselves ragged; probably more than some of the soccer players. I showed a positive attitude throughout the game and kept any suggestions to myself, deferring to the coach. After all, my job is just to support him. I think it was a lovely night out.